The Over Thinker

In my experience with anxiety it causes me to over think and over analyze every detail of life.

Lately I have been thinking about sending my ex husband an apology text. I’m not wanting him back or anything of that nature but I have been doing a lot of thinking about myself and I feel like I need to apologize. Kind of feel like righting my wrongs lately.

We separated in August 2018 and our divorce was final in January 2019. I don’t know if it’s because it’s almost been a year and that has been causing me to think about everything or if it’s my new relationship slipping through my fingers making me wish I had done some things differently in my marriage and maybe we would have still been together. Whatever the reason it’s weighing on my mind a lot and I’m not really sure what to do.

Part of me knows it won’t make a difference so why waste my time but the other part of me thinks maybe he would appreciate it and I might feel better getting it out there.

This is the part of anxiety that gets so hard when your mind goes back and forth and you don’t know what to do and it consumes every thought no matter if it’s morning, midday, or night my mind doesn’t stop.

Like a runaway train with a destination of nowhere.

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