No, the title doesn’t really make much sense but really do our lives either?
I don’t write as much as I should to keep myself mentally sane but I do think about writing here a lot more then I do. I think about writing about my life in general, my struggles, my achievements, and my relationship. Unfortunately that’s as far as I get usually. Seems something always gets in the way of my thought and I never really finish what I was thinking about writing or I think who cares about what I have on my mind anyways.
I will say my anxiety is a lot more under control now then it has been over the past many years. I am so thankful for that. I have my daily struggles even if they are as small as not getting the inside seat at the booth I’m sitting down to eat at… the little things are still there. I’d much rather deal with that then having the fear of dying constantly or random panic attacks for no reason that show up at the times you think you’re just fine.
I’m not really sure what has changed unless I’m just learning to process things better mentally. I know I have grown a lot from my broken relationships to make the one I have today so much better with less stress and worries. I’ve learned so much over the last couple years and focused on me that maybe I’ve found myself enough to control myself… I like that. Never thought about it that way. See this is why I should write!
I HAVE FOUND MYSELF ENOUGH TO CONTROL MYSELF -Alek